hi everyone, this is my first post here.

i think i always knew i was bi. i used to mess around with girls when i was i grade school - during sleep overs we would play husband and wife and end up making love. jeez, i remember feeling this way as early as 2nd grade.

my first sexual experience as an adult was in my mid/late twenties, had a sexual relationship with a friend that ended up falling for me, but i didn't feel the same way. i've never actually had a "relationship" with a woman, the interactions i've had have mostly been sexually oriented - altho there is one woman i would have gotten more involved with if she hadn't drank so much booze. alcoholism is unappealing, in a male or female body.

over the years i've noticed that what i'm attracted to is the feminine, whether that package comes in a male or female form isn't all that important, although overall i am more into being with a male partner. i'm super attracted to both feminine men and women . i have a really strong masculine side, as well as a really strong feminine side. the feminine side tends to come out with men, while the more domineering masculine side comes out with women. it feels like an unnatural split that doesn't get addressed ........ and actually creates pain for me in relationships with straight partners.

i recently had a short lived thing with a guy that was bi, my first. i guess i've been with guys that played around but would never identify as bisexual. i am totally stunned at how he was able to meet both of my sides equally, matching my masculine with his feminine and vice versa. i don't know how it never really dawned on me that maybe thats part of the problem with why relationships don't last for me. i look for the external form of a woman to play with the masculine part of me, and a man to play with the feminine side of me. the thought that one person could meet both is so freaking liberating - it got me searching around on tribe for a place to talk about it.

do other people here have any of these similar gender identity issues that have either come to the surface or been resolved by being in relationship with bisexual partners?